what i'm looking for, can't be sold to me

it's weird how sometimes it takes something nearly awful to make you see the amazing..

my sister and i were very nearly in a car accident this past weekend, and if it were not for her, who knows where we would be right now. a telephone pole meeting a car at 60 mph.. it just doesn't work out well for anyone involved.

but the point of this is, with that incident, i've realized that everything single cliched thing that every person has ever said about taking life for granted is painfully true, no matter how bad it may sound in a Nickelback song. i figure that it's time to stop emitting negative energy into the world around me. i've done it for long enough. i don't have time to waste on it.

i think of how many things i have yet to do, people i have yet to meet, and places i have not yet seen, and it frightens me that in no time at all, it could be meaningless.

but i still plan on dipping my toes into the sand at Bora Bora. i still plan on being mystified by the love of my life everytime i look her way. i still plan on making a record with my words and music. and i also plan on holding my children on the hammock outside my back porch door.

while everyone scampers around everyday, being what everyone else wants them to be, i hope that i will be the one bumping into them, and making them wonder; i will be staring at a tree, looking at the passing people,making up stories about who they are and where they're going, or gazing into the warm, summer, night sky.

because that's where i really belong.