it's funny sometimes. how dependent we are on others. how utterly incapable we are as humans to rely on ourselves for almost anything we do. my greatest fear is being alone. not having another peron to confide in, to laugh with, to cry with, and to hold. human contact is a must, for all. anyone who has ever sat alone in your room, knows the feeling i'm talking about. sometimes, solitude can help us, but after a while, it only ends up haunting us. so again, while i sit here alone in my room typing this, i'm longing. i need to learn to appreciate myself. really love myself. not just the things that are attractive, but the things that are ugly as well. only then, i think, will the pressure to have someone else, truly lift away. when i can love myself for who i am, i am then free to love someone else for exactly who they are.

and by the way, don't ever feel like you have no where to go. if it really comes down to it, pack up some clothing, and just drive. we have more freedom than we think we do. all of us are constricted by different things, whether it be work, school, significant other, but deep inside all of us there will always be the instinct to want to be free. or maybe just more free than we think we are. just go. don't think twice. just go.